It’s November 16th, 2024, and 10:48 p.m. as I write this.
Introducing The How I’ve Been Segment
I’m starting a new segment on this blog: How I’ve Been. I need to fill the Personal category with posts, and this seems like the best way to do so. My life has been quite boring lately and since I don’t have any fun stories to share, I’m going to vent. The plan is for these How I’ve Been blog posts to be monthly—maybe weekly, if I have a lot on my mind.
This will be a space for venting, and sharing my feelings, thoughts, deepest secrets, all of that. But it’s not limited to me; it’s also the perfect opportunity for you, dear reader, to chime in through the comments. Please feel free to share how you’ve been and share any life updates. No matter how personal or f*cked up—this is a safe space! Also, there’s an option to comment anonymously, so don’t worry about being put on blast. This blog is a safe haven for me and those alike!
Today Has Been…
Honestly, I feel like I’ve done nothing at all today, and that’s probably because I forgot to follow my daily checklist. I’m a list girl; it keeps me on track, and it’s just part of having double Capricorn placements (sun and moon sign). Lately, I’ve been getting more into the zodiac stuff. I’ve always been interested in astrology, and I know a thing or two about the signs, thanks to my astrology-obsessed mom (love ya). I’m just embracing my birth chart to its full potential right now, and it’s really fun on this side.
Walking… It Will Save You
Over the past 10 days, I’ve been walking. And when I say walking, I mean walking like my life depends on it. I bought a walking pad in late October, and now I take the time out of my days to walk for two hours. I’m a beast on the treadmill, if I do say so myself. I like to split the time into one-hour increments, walking at a steady 3 mph, while blasting my walking playlist. Trust me, it’s not as bad as it sounds. In fact, walking this consistently has me feeling better every single day.
I’ve only been doing this for 10 days, but even in that short time, my face looks slimmer, and overall, I just feel more alive. While the physical benefits of daily walking are a plus, I wanted to make a point of not walking solely for that reason. It’s about building a healthy habit, and no way am I stopping now with these noticeable results rolling in.
I’d recommend walking every day to just about everyone. It’s a great way to clear your head, and it doesn’t have to be a hassle. If you can’t afford a treadmill, walking pad, or a gym membership, just go outside and walk. You’ll be better for it!
Truthfully, I didn’t need to buy the walking pad, but I have a severe fear of dogs, so I’m confined to my family’s garage. But if you can walk outside, don’t miss the opportunity! You’ll get much more than just physical improvement, and you’ll thank me–I say jokingly–and yourself for it.
My Unfortunate Habit of Self-Isolating
While I’ve taken up this healthy habit, I’ve also fallen back into an unhealthy one: isolation. I can’t help it, seriously. Solitude is so precious to me, and it’s such a vital part of my lifestyle. Sometimes, though, I can definitely overdo it. It’s funny because I’ll isolate myself, and then in the same breath, complain about being lonely. Should I be complaining? Nope! But I don’t plan on stopping anytime soon.
It just feels good, especially since right now, while I’m isolating, I’m not sad or depressed. I’m Zen. I feel calm and at ease. My one friend, however, is not a fan of this. It’s nothing personal—I may even ghost family members—and it’s not coming from a place of disrespect or disregard for others. Some days, I just don’t have the capacity to talk or text. I know it’s unhealthy, but I genuinely feel fine and this might come back to bite me in the end but I’m hopeful. I’m known to have a history of isolation during really dark times, so that’s why those around me take it negatively. From their perspective, Kayla’s isolation equals despair. But that’s not always true! I promise!
But… I Feel Fine
Lately, I’ve been pretty happy, and I love that for myself. This peaceful state has me focusing on myself, mainly on this blog and my Pinterest. I’ve been using this time to focus on what I love to do, and it’s working well for me. My Pinterest is growing quickly, my blog views are increasing daily, and I’ve been writing like no one’s business! The amount of blog content I have drafted is insane and I have so much more to offer now. Things are looking up for me and I’m content. Abundant even. It’s true what they say: “Shit only gets better from here on out.”
Finished on November 16th, 2024, at 11:13 p.m.
